ha-ha-ha-heart.

.my heart is happy right now.
.i've found my prince.
.hope God will let us be.
.palits.
.i'm happy when i'm with you.

thoughts.

year 2007 had been great for me. i had a lots of memories from that year. i began to discover new things and i was able to achieved a lot.

i won 2nd in regonals division on the 2007 National Statistics Quiz Bee. with God i was able to defeat the other giant schools. thank God He gave me courage to share how He worked in wonderful ways by having my experience as a testimonial to others. He gave me more than what i asked Him. He guided me all along.

but the latter part of the year was a draugth. i was spiritually down. i don't think God cares for me anymore. but with His grace i continue to seek Him and hold on with His promise.

Jeremiah 29:13
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

and so my bestfriend helped me. we came up with this accountability partner. we will be accountable to each other.

the book Purpose Driven Life also helped me in answering some of my questions about life and God.

i was able to finished it last year but i want to read it again. the last that i read was the topic of day 7 about our temporary assignment here on earth. it answered my question why i feel awkward when talking to some of my friends. i don't have any close friends like what i had during highschool. they were different, when you talked to my high school friends about how God works in your life, it's normal. but now it's like your telling what's in jupiter, different -- not interesting.

i guess children of God doesn't really belong here that's why we feel different here.


+ where you are today is not where God wants you to stay+

hey there..

it's been quite a long time since i posted my last blog.. i have been busy these past few months.. or i'm making myself busy for other things instead of doing this blog.. thanks for still reading it and i hope that my past blogs will always inspire you and keep you going despite of all the problems that you'll face if you have any prayer requests or are there things which you think i can help you at just e-mail me .. take care and Godbless..

if you're one of my high school friends..i miss you so much..!!!

falling deeper and deeper..

i find myself lying in bed thinking of wonderful thoughts. Jesus has saved me from eternal death and now I'm living a fearless life. a life which i can say worth living because i have decided to obey God's teachings. i'm recently reading this book entitle "the Heavenly Man." it really inspired me to obey God and to preach the gospel. it also allow me to be faithful in times of distress. i heard this wonderful song last night and it really blessed my soul and renewed my spirit.

Night and day I seek Your face

Long for You in the secret place

All I want in this life

Is to truly know you more...

As the waters cover the sea,

So Your love covers me

Guiding me on,

Roads unkown

I trust in You alone

My Saving Grace

My endless love

Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with You

My one desireMy only truth

Deeper and deeper I'm falling in love with you

And I will rise on wings of eagles

Soaring high above all my fears

I rest in Your open arms of love

"my heart's desire is to give You glory, honor and praise!"

no one's at rest cause the Earth never stops spinning..and we're on it..

nice title right..just one of the application of the uncertainty principle proposed by Heisenberg..which i think is applicable in our life..nothing's really certain bout this life we're living..i think the only thing is that all things work together for good for those who love God. i'll stick to that right now. and will still hope for something real that will happen in my life. i'm tired of all the routines i'v gone through each day. i'm tired of going to the same school, riding the same jeepneys, passing though same places and doing same things everyday. as if after i've read the book Veronika decides to die i bagan to feel what she's feeling when she decided to die.. haah..but i won't decide to die.. cause life is somehow beautiful beacause of the people around me..especially my family..

let's go to the point of the title..i'm realy uncertain about how he feels. i think he already know. he ignores me. i don't know what to do. I WANT TO TELL HIM DIRECTLY BUT I'M STILL WAITING FOR A SIGN. he doesn't care!! i hate what i'm feeling..



..tears run down, but still i wanna wait..

pretending not to care..

i can't explain what i'm feeling right now. as if i'm into something undefined, uncontrollable and unimaginable. i was able to feel this before, that time is when i was hurt by someone i loved. right now, i can consider this situation like the situation i've experienced before.

he pretended not to notice me at all. he didn't even cared how will i feel after i'll found out. and as if he really cared at all. thank God i've found it out.

i don't know if this is a way of telling me to stop all those things that i'm doing for him and to let the Author og my life to make His own story for me.i was so stupid not to be careful about this. i think he already knows what i'm feeling for him. after i realized that he might came out with this conclusion, i didn't know what to do then.

i decided not to do anything. but, he didn't even noticed. he even snobbed. it was hurtful. but i know i can handle this.


+ let go and let God +

let go and let God..

at last..high school is over!!..we just have to finish all the practicing and other things for graduation.. but we still have 24 days to go..so there are still lots of things to do.. lots of parties, overnights, open forum, movie tripping and mushy things to do. i can say we have very minimal time to do all those things.. i hope that i could end this part of my life without regrets or remorse.

as this end starts, i realized a lot of things which put me where i am now..i rememdered my friends and my elementary days decisions.. it was to don't study at the school, where i'm actually about to graduate.. i really don't like the school and preferred pup..but God is great..He gave me what is the best for me and He's still providing me with things i need. indeed He is a wonderful Creator and Author of my life.

now, i'm again at a turning point of life, deciding where to study college. but i know if i trust God and just keep on praying and by giving glory to Him in everything i do, His perefect plan for my life will happen and i will surely succeed in everything i'll do.. thank God!

”‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.’” (Jeremiah 29:11-13)