seven black roses..

When I leave
I wanna wait for the silence
You gave me all you’ve got
But now I stand here waving at you
And still you smile,
you’re still looking back
Maybe I just wasn’t kind enough
I’m fighting urges to fall again
Yet I stumble

These roses died 3 days since
Black roses died, we said goodbye
These roses died 3days since
I’m sorry, I miss you
How do I remain complete
When all we bleed is lost?
We could’ve burned the earth and sky
A second chance
The seconds spent

Each other’s shadow, should’ve known
I’m fighting urges to fall again
Yet I stumble
Hear this I’m yours
I’m at your feet
Inside this heart you still emain
But faded letters are erased..


[Chicosci]

the Lord is my Shepherd..i'm His sheep..

A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness

for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk

through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil,

for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me

all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD

forever.

by the blood im cleaned..

another great day spent with my friends at living for Christ ministries. i thought that the group had just let the ministry slip off our hands by just the power of the enemy through our principal..haha.. but indeed, greater is He that is in us than he that is in the world. we again renewed our souls and prayed that this ministry will go on reaching souls in our school. we prayed that this january we will again start with our bible study every wednesday.

we watches the passion of the Christ and saw how Jesus sacrificed His life for our sins (For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many. -Mark 10:45). He died on the cross. it should be us, but, He did it to save us and for us to have everlasting life.

i cried as I watch the movie and recalled all the sins that i did, and thought that i'm not worthy of all the things i'm having now. but God is so good, He still blesses my family and all of us with wonderful things bacause He loves us so much.

we ended the meeting with a very powerful closing prayer. i'm so blessed this day because God had again touched my heart and let me feel His awesome love for me. i can't really explain how great the feeling is. if i could just make you click something here and let you feel how it is. God is a refuge for the weak. whoever trust in Him will never be weary and wil gain strength to go on with life each day.



[living for Christ; the Messiah]

can't contain it..

i really had a wonderful christmas. i received gifts which i never thought i would. when i woke up it's already 12mn. so i decided to greet my pfamily and my friends through text. i also greeted the guy i like. and to my surprise he greeted me back. haha. i'm so happy. i thanked the LORD for giving me wonderful gifts which is more wonderful than material things.


so blessed i can't contain it

what i like about you..

i'm liking this guy. so i like to make this for him. as if he'll care to read this. anyways,
if you think this is you..thanks for reading. i hope you would appreciate it.

21 things why i like you..

i like..

1. your smell. (bounce)
2. your eyes
3. your smile..
4. the way you treat me rudely
5. the way you left me behind while we're walking
6. the way you look at me while you play your guitar
7. the times that you text me unexpectedly
8. you when you look so stupid
9. when you told me "pag tumaba ako"..and i know it won't happen
10. when you try to sing even if you really can't
11. when you act like a child
12. when all you care about is to say jokes and tease people
13. when you make me lost of words to say when you get near
14.when you told me i don't look like a girl. it offende me.
15. your being mysterious
16. you in your blog
17. the way you pray so seriously
18. when you tell me you can't finish reading a book beacause your busy but your trying
19. when you run out of words to say and say senseless things
20. your spongebob laugh
20. you because you make me like you, even if i don't really know why i like you..


[leave me or take me as i am]

i want you to know

Christmas..

what's the real meaning of christmas?? is it about gifts? parties? or having fun with loved ones..
uhm.. i think it's not. for me it's about the Son of God that came to seek and save the lost..it's about God reaching out to people through giving His Son to us. imagine how much God love us. He gave His son for us, nonesense people, whom in fact is not deserving for all the things that we are having right now.

Jesus was born to die and to give His life as a ransom for many people. Christmas is when people understand why Jesus came to earth. indeed, salvation is Christmas. evryday can be Christmas if we just share the wonderful gift that God is offering to us. Truly, one should celebrate if it became clear to that person his purpose in life. Christmas is not only on December 25..it can be everyday..as long as you have heaven in your hearts.



You died on the cross
my life you saved at all cost
You showed me the way
Now I offer myself to you
i want to be with you evermore

Lord, i wanna be in heaven with you
right by Your side i'll stay
worshipping you all day
i'll live and die for You
anything i will do
for heaven is here in my heart



have a meaningful Christmas!


For the Son of Man came to Seek and Save what was lost

Luke 19:10

[stoic]

sto·ic [ stṓ ik ]
noun (plural sto·ics)
Definition:

somebody impassive: somebody who is unemotional, especially somebody who shows patience and endurance during adversity

adjective
Definition:

patient and uncomplaining: showing admirable patience and endurance in the face of adversity without complaining or getting upset


It's difficult to turn your back to someone whom you really want to be with. to let someone feel he is neglected , when in fact he is important. to show someone that you don't mind, when in fact you care a lot. to avoid someone when in fact you want to take a stolen glance . to treat someone as an ordinary being, when in fact he's really special. to let someone realize taht that his presence is naturallywelcome when in fact it creates extraordinary excitement. to say things contrary to what you feel, to laugh when in fact you want to cry your heart out.


[i want you to want me. i need you to need me.]

at last..

at last i've fixed the problem here in my blog. even though i have to change my url and the main e-mail address,it's worth the effort. i've erased my first blog because it's such a trash. now, i'm trying to make these really part of my life. i'll try to post main things that are happening in my life. it's sort of a testimony on how my Lord is working in my life. but, i can't write all because of so much blessings.i hope that as you read my blog you'll get something from it and that you'll be entertained and may it help you to know more about me. i'll be very thankful if you'll post comments so that i can also hear from you. this will be also a sort of communication for us.

i'll try hard to make this as worth-reading as possible. anyways, thanks for reading this.Godbless.

"for the One who died for me,what more can I say?"

[living for Christ]



Have a meaningful Christmas!

still, i could see hope

i prayed each day,but still i can't feel any answer. i saw no light each day. i seek for refuge. i did all things but still i can't. then, i saw myself, lying in darkness. i was searching for a wrong perspective. i searched for something that really can't give me what i'm looking for.

i became self-centered and think everyone is wrong and i'm right. i felt so alone as i lie on my bed and pray. i seek for truth. he made me realized that what i' was doing is wrong. i think only of myself. i'm becoming selfish and self-righteous. i cried while i'm taking a bath so that tears can't be notice but my heart is still exhausted after i cried. i prayed and i feel God's embrace. He gave me hope and told me to slow things and refresh my mind. after the talk with God, i started a new day with full of hope, as if i'm renewed.



"Behold I make all things new"

Rev 21:5

God gives us hope whenever we feel down,just pray.

i'm happy, but sadness is a necessity

say a prayer for me
i need a new life
i'm not blind cuz i see the truth and the lies.
heed my words,
listen to advice
you don't need to run away
and take your life
no you can't live this way.

saw you go for miles
destination nowhere,
no means or how
soul searching for how...

just take a look around
at the faces that you meet
cuz everybody's got their own pains
like you and me never fall away.
whatever you do choose life
the thoughts on your mind choose life


"leave me or take me as i am"


*i worship You my God*