a lonely night..

i'm still finishing my project, and waiting while my bestest friend's files are downloading. i have so many things to do but I have very minimal time to do all those things. so far, sleeping is a luxury i can't afford. whenever i lie at my bed it felt like i work 3 jobs.

there are still lots of things to do in school, personal interests and all. i want to organize my stuffs so that it will be easy for me to transfer to my dorm at college. i'm planning to study at UPLB, but i'll try to reconsider so that i can transfer to UP Diliman. i guess life will be easier if i can transfer there. but i still want to have a dorm because i want to focus on two things when i get to college,studying and serving God. i want to focus. i't not saying my family is a hindrance in doing all of these. i just to be independent. i want to be in a place where i can focus my mind on these twothings. i'm always praying to God to help me in making decisions and in planning things for myself and for the good of people around me.

it's really hard making decisions, but i know this is a training for me for bigger decisions to make as i go on with my life as a Christian. i know that i can make it through because i have Him guiding me all the way through His greatest plan for my life.

*God has better plans for than what i have for myself*

i passed the upcat!

all seniors in our school was really excited because the results for the upcat is finally released. and thank God i am one of the people who passed the test. all of us were happy and got excited for college.haha. i just want to share the happiness.

[ to God be the glory ]

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD."
-Isaiah 55:7

..an unfinished masterpiece of Christ..

last sunday was a day i'll never forget. it's a day when the devourer put me to a test which i passed through Him who always give me continuous strength. my parents was arguing with me because i was such a brat and my brother told me that im a fake Christian. it really crushed my heart and my faith and felt unworthy of everything God has given me. i cried. and thought of stopping my service to God. i talked to my mom and she told me that only God can help me in my problem.

the next morning i woke up full of hope. hoping that God would reveal the answers for my prayer that day. the day went well and normal. alittle tiring beacause of the exams. i tried to sleep, but, felt that there is something misssing. that's why i tried to open this book, which is to be read everyday. it says on the date of Sunday that we should never give up on the service for the Lord just because we felt that were unworthy. i was surprised. i never thought that God will answer me that directly. and it says thare this verse, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (I John 1:9).

i guess it answered my prayer, and decided to go on, serving Him, to the ends of my days.


'Jesus is not yet done with our lives!'

NCAE..what the? a test which will surely make us cry..

Bob Ong style of writing..

ang NCAE..isang exam na hindi ko malamn kung para saan. sa batch pa namin inemplement. akalain mo nga naman ang inaakala naming problema na pagpasa sa up ay mas hihigitan pa nitong isa. kuru-kuru at tsismis ng mga guro ay hindi daw kami makakatuntong ng kolehiyo kapag hindi namin ito naipasa. kaya kami namang mga estudyante ay nagpanic at nagsisigaw ng mga limang segundo at balik ulet sa pag pupusoy dos. ngunit hindi ibig sabihin nito ay winalang bahala na lamang namin ito. naging usapan din ito sa canteen at corridor ng mga 4th year ng ilang mga araw. ang iba ay natatakot at ang iba ay hindi alam na meron nito.haha. pero ganun pa man tuloy na tuloy na ito bukas. at kahit nagtanung-tanung ako sa mga katabi kong pinipilita imulat ang kanilang mata dahil sa nakakaantok na guro sa harap kung magrereview sila at malamn na mgababasa sila, ito ako gumagawa ng mga bagay na hindi ako maipapasa sa NCAE. ammaya na lang ako nmag-aaral pag sinabihan na ko ng aso namin na amg-aral..haha..

ayon. pagdasal nio kami.

salamat.

a dream was shattered, a hope was born..

the result of the ACET really made me sad, because, i didn't pass. ADMM is my dream school even though i know we can't afford it i still believed that somehow God will give me that school. but, he did not. i cried after i checked the internet for my name in the ACET passsers. my mom told me that it's all right we can't afford anyway and God has planned something better for me. it was really a big deal for that i questioned God for not passing the exam. but it felt good that there are still a lot of good school out there for me wherein i can excel and be a good leader and a servant.

i know that God has planned a great story for me. and i will just trust him as long as i live.

[to God be the glory]

..an angel..flew away..

this is a song that i really like..hope you'll like it..this is for someone i liked--but fled from my heart..this has a mesage which state that i should'nt let him go...but i have to or else i'll hurt myself more...but i'm really glad i took back what i felt for him. it's really hard letting go of a feeling then suddenly holding it back.. it's not really a big deal if you'll see me..but deep inside me,it really hurted me..


let go of the broken glass that you're holding before your blood runs out...
'Anghel'
Mula nang makilala ka
'Di na makapaniwala
Na kahit pa magkaiba
Tayo'y sadyang naging isa

Sa langit ay ba't kumalas
Nahulog ba mula taas
Pakpak mo ay pakibaklas
Nang makasama ka nang mas madalas

Anghel sa lupa, mananatili ka
'Di na hahayaang lumipad at iwan ako
Anghel sa lupa, nahuhumaling na
Langit nadarama 'pag kapiling kita

Sana'y 'di na lumisan pa
'Di ko yata makakaya
Ang 'di ko na makita pa
Pagtitig mo sa 'king mata

Naliligaw ba ng landas
Nariyan ka ba kaya bukas
Pakpak mo ay pakibaklas
Nang makasa ma ka ng mas madalas

Dapat ba sa isang mortal ang sa iyo ay magmahal

[bleeding inside]

those three words i said too much but not enough..

Forever..

I'll Worship at Your Throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart I'll sing
For You my Dad and King
I'll live for all my days
To Put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet
It'll be for eternity

And how wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
And how far You would come
If ever I was lost
And You said that all You feel for me
Is undying love
That You showed me through the cross


I'll worship You my God
I love You
I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You
Be with You


*God is the best author*